This Is Getting Monotonous5/14/2019 During the prolonged period I went without ketamine due to my being fed up with going to San Francisco, I felt worse to the point of thinking about suicide. I eventually decided with much reluctance to go to S.F. again to get another ketamine infusion. (BTW, don’t get coverage from Kaiser Permanente if you want mental health treatment. The people in charge of running it are the worst.)
Since I felt my depression compromising my cognition, I was hopeful I’d benefit a lot from it this time. Unfortunately, it only cleared my mind a little and had no effect on my mood. But let me tell you about the experience this time. I ended up experiencing the same things I’ve already described in this blog. Yet again I felt worse (at first) because I associate the hospital with bad memories. Yet again I felt as though I had some bird’s eye view of the world and its history and how human society has unfolded through the millennia. The only wrinkle in the experience this time was that I also thought about game theory too. That’s probably because of this video I watched the day before. It got me thinking about whether morality is in some way connected to the Nash equilibrium point. If so, that would explain the rise of empathy, outrage, and other emotions associated with morality.
It’s interesting that on the 14th I felt like “my life” was monotonous I
Alex Freeman
5/17/2019 09:08:21 am
Oh, thank you, Elizabeth! You're actually the second person to tell me that my writing opens (although the other person worded it a little differently).
Irene
6/11/2019 08:21:45 am
Need some help with your allusion to game theory website. I need someone like you to briefly explain what the Nash equilibrium point is and anything else that pertains to your experience and this theory. Comments are closed.
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