So I had my ketamine session on the 13th. In case you're wondering why the big time gap between then and now, it's partly because I've been so busy with other things. But the main reason is because something I saw on Facebook concerning global warming triggered really strong, negative emotions: despair and anger.
My despair was so extreme that I felt like shooting myself in the head right there and then and felt that way for the next few days.
My anger was so extreme that I had to take a break from some things such as Facebook for well over a week while I calmed down.
The fact that I saw a bunch of other things related to global warming during that time certainly didn't help.
It's extremely rare for me to get that emotional, but THE FATE OF THE WORLD HINGES ON HOW WE HANDLE GLOBAL WARMING. I know about the climate strike that happened on the 20th, but we've done such a terrible job of handling it that I fear we won't get our act together in time to save ourselves. We're close enough to the point of no return that, even under the best case scenario, the combined actions of certain people in Russia, Brazil, and the U.S. will likely end up killing off far more people over the next several decades than the combined actions of Hitler, Stalin, and Mao.
This has been made possible because enough people are ignorant enough of science or close-minded enough (or both) for meaningful action to stop global warming to be stalled or thwarted, and that is truly frightening.
Even if we somehow survive it A-OK, I don't know if anything can be done to prevent future potentially apocalyptic crises from happening due to human folly. More science education probably isn't the answer since closed-minded people with superior science education typically use it to better rationalize their false beliefs. That's why fundamentalists with a college degree are less likely to agree that the Earth revolves around the Sun. Even if we created a system that worked, I could easily see future generations saying, "What do we need this for?" and then dismantling it.
We survived the Cold War, and we may survive this, but if, every century, we create two crises that each have the potential to wipe us out, it'll probably be only a matter of time before we do. And, in the meantime, we'll wipe out many species that'll get to have no say at all in any of this.
And if you're actually OK with that because you believe that will speed up The Second Coming, then what's so wrong with murder? After all, murder just sends people to their just reward in Heaven or their just punishment in Hell, right?
.....So getting to my ketamine session on the 13th, it just so happens that, during it, I thought about how much it takes to make something yet so little to break it -- whether it's a building, a system, or one's life.
It took so much to make me yet so little to break me.
It also took 10,000 years (counting from the end of the Stone Age) to get to where we are today.
.....And it could all be over in less than a century.