The following is what I wrote soon after I had my first ketamine session several weeks ago:
My first ketamine session was kind of strange. It was similar to what I imagined taking LSD would feel like based on what I've read and heard about it. I first felt as though my neural pathways were getting shaken loose, and my preconceived notions were being let go of. I then felt as though I was emerging from some primordial ooze in the water and then crawling out toward some light in a cave on land as I started wondering, "What's it all about? What are we? What's arbitrary and what isn't?"
I later felt as though I was going toward some starry expanse in the sky and felt lost. I eventually wanted to feel grounded on Earth again.
After experiencing various sensations and such, I eventually grew bored of the experience and wanted it to be over.
Although the experience seemed to last closer to an hour and a half, when it was, in fact, over, the nurse administering the treatment remarked on how quickly I had recovered. She said I must be very healthy and perhaps should have a greater dose next time. When I mentioned that I felt bored at some point during the treatment, she said that too might be a result of having too little of the drug.
I forgot to bring my own music for the session, so I listened to something made just for ketamine patients. I plan on listening to something completely different to see what difference that makes.